Thoughts

Happy Wednesday everyone! We made it to the middle of the week. Honestly there really isn't that much going on around here to talk about. 

The new job didn't work out. It just wasn't the right fit for me and that is okay. Something will come up that will be for me. I will admit that it is hard to not get depressed and down and frustrated and honestly I am some of that. It is what it is. 

I can't believe it is July 16. This month is flying by. 

Today would have been my 20th wedding anniversary. It hit me this morning as I was going through Facebook memories. I hadn't thought about it until then. I am not angry now, just sad. I never thought I would be a divorced, single mom. 

 I have been binge watching nature documentaries on Disney+. I never knew that octopus were such interesting creatures.

The weather has been so humid the last few weeks. I walk outside and immediately am drenched in sweat. We had some rain earlier today. 

I had a good nephrology appointment this morning. That is a positive. 

Ben broke his bed, so I will be in the market for another one for him. I don't know if he jumped on it or if Jacob jumped on it, but they sheared off one of the middle metal legs. I am not sure how they did it. Ugh. He would rather sleep on the floor anyways, so I am thinking about getting him a frame that is like 3 inches off the ground.  

The kids are all gone tonight. The boys are at their dad's apartment. Rebecca is at my sister's house. It's so quiet here and I don't like it. I will have to get used to it though as Rebecca gets ready to move to college. 

I just need to get back into a good life rhythm right now. I am depressed I think and my medicine isn't helping but my doctor left the practice and is not practicing right now. Ugh. 

Just lots of ughs right now. Such is this season of life. I will get through it. It is just hard for me right now. 

Until next time....hope everyone has a good rest of your week.