Hello everyone. I didn't mean to not post for the past month or so. I wish I could say that it was because life has been super busy, and I have been out having adventures with the kids. But that wouldn't be honest.
Honestly, the last month has been hard. When we got back from vacation (which I still need to finish the posts for), life got HARD. Bill and I have hit a rough patch in our marriage for the 2nd time. We have done counseling in the past and life is just rough right now.
I got hit with a bout of depression that really has knocked me down in a way that I haven't felt in a really long time. In fact, our marriage counselor suggested that I talk to my doctor about depression meds. I have been on meds for a couple of weeks. I am not sure that the dosage is correct as I still do not feel okay, but they want me on the dose I am on now for 4-6 weeks before they will change it.
My health has also gotten worse. When we were on vacation, I couldn't walk very far without my back hurting and being out breath. I still can't go upstairs without getting out of breath. It is super frustrating. I am not sure how I am going to go back to work in a couple weeks. If I do something really physical, then I am out of commission for a few days after. For example, Rebecca and Jacob recently went to their summer camp and so I tried to do something with Ben. On one day where the weather wasn't hot or humid, we met my sister and her girlfriend at the zoo. Well, we walked slow and took our time (since my sister also has many health issues). When my back hurt, I tried to sit and rest. However, when I got home, I was done. And honestly, it took me a week to get back to not being exhausted.
Before anyone says that I need to see my doctors, I have. I am due to have testing and more bloodwork at the end of next week for my nephrologist as she thinks that there may be something wrong with my kidneys. It took my hospital 6 weeks to get me in for the ultrasound appointment. By the time I would have tried to get a referral to a doctor in Columbus, it would have been the same amount of time. It is just really crappy.
So that's why I haven't written.